I've read all of the blogs, Facebook posts, and magazine articles about how to be the perfect mom, how to be a good wife, how to be a sexy lady with a style of my own, how to have an organized home, and so on. I've tried to meet all of these crazy expectations but at the end of the day it's all information overload and it just isn't me. So, what am I?
Some days I'm boring in jeans and a sweatshirt. Some days I'm fab in heels and a tight dress. Some days I'm just too damn lazy to try. Some days I am full of energy and want to shine. Some days I want to be mom of the year. Some days you would never guess I had kids. Some days I want to be a kept girl with no worries or responsibilities. Some days I want to rule the world with super hero powers and my mind runs wild with ways I can make a difference. Some days I want to dance in my panties and let the world watch. Some days I want to hide and not let a single person see me. Some days I'm scatter brained with my thoughts bouncing from one side of my brain to the other. Some days I feel I'm suffering from OCD and can only focus on one thing while shutting the rest of the world out. Some days I am sweet, warm, and inviting in pastels. Some days I want to flip the world the bird in leather and heavy black eyeliner.
Some days I let my kids run wild and make a mess. I want to finger paint and blow bubbles and live in their little world. Other days I want them to be little statues because I freak out if they so much as think about making a mess or touch anything. I want to put them in front of television and dare them to move.
My fingernail polish never matches the polish on my toes. I wear white sports socks regardless of what else I have on...yes, even if I am wearing black boots I still have on white sports socks.
I'm absolutely in love with Tina Fey and P!nk. How can I show off the smart ass punk that lives inside me but still be feminine and sexy.?
A Little Dark, A Little Edgy
I've always thought that I was a little different, a little edgy, original...a little on the dark side, maybe? Although, I'm not into skulls, crosses, gore or horror. I do like vampires (think Damon Salvatore - Vampire Diaries...yummy). I love being a mom and wife but I don't want that to define me. I love for people to think I am wearing something funky or make an asshole remark about my hair style choice. In order to feel sexy I must eat right and workout. I can't help it. It's part of who I am. I am interested in so many things. I want to do it all and be it all but then I get too involved and get in over my head.
I'm Just a Girl and I'm Good With That
So who am I? What am I? I don't fall into any one category. I can't be wrapped up in a pretty little word that defines what I am. I'm just a girl. And I'm good with that.
What are you? I'd love to read your thoughts and comments.